So, BOEY! WHEN YOU GET OUT OF ARMY THIS IS HERE FOR YOU. 

I HOPE ALL'S WELL AND TAKE CARE! 

love el

and I also hope my other botak male friend is doing well. The army better return my dear friends to me as they were. I'll be miserable if they don't and then hate both the army and the government.

 >:(

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As I was travelling today I kinda properly realised how much I'm enjoying my currently carefree, random life of bumming around and hangingabouts. Sleeping till whenever, working whenever (whenever possible that is, i'm still looking for more temp jobs! ) and really, having alot of fun. But it also dawned on me that I haven't been doing anything significant within this veryhappy period. Which is really bad. I have done many slightly significant things, like attempting to catch up with friends, attempting to earn some income online, attempting to bake, attempting to sew my own stuff and attempting to read.. But they're all mere attempts. Either oneoff successes or still half done. And I suppose it kinda reflects on what kind of person I truly am :( a really sad person.. with really bad time management and with no passion or determination at allllll......

Or something as close as that. How weird is that? Life seems so fun but then still quite empty and pointless too. That or I'm abit siao and am not thinking properly. Oh well, it still remains sanely true that it's time to do more important stuff before the anxiety of receiving my results comes close enough. Lol.

Oh yes. Beanbagbeanpaste and my aunty.. My aunty's a really inspiring person. I was never really close to her but she's friendly enough. I see her as someone successful and someone happy. Kinda like what I wanna be. But I'm aware of how much hard work she's put in and how genuinely nice she is AND I'm aware of how I am none of the two. Which is once again, sad for me. 

I suppose I do need to start thinking about my future, whatever dark and dim future of mine. It is coming too close :( I wish I knew the choices that I have to consider and I wish I could first drag myself back to the mean bloody reality.

The thought of it is already very nostrilflaring.